Tuesday, April 08, 2014

Lie to me, I promise to believe

Love, however, has its own dialectic. There was a young girl I was once in love with. Last summer at the theatre in Dresden I saw an actress who bore a deceptive resemblance to her. Because of this I wanted to make her acquaintance, and succeeded, and then convinced myself that there was a quite considerable difference all the same. Today I met a lady on the street who reminded me of that actress. This story can go on as long as you like. 
Soren Kierkegaard, Either/Or, pg 344-345 (Penguin Classics)

I picked the title because I found a clip of Lorde and Haim doing a cover of the Sheryl Crow song "Strong Enough". 

I then randomly opened up to a page in Either/Or. That's the first bit I saw. Not sure if they relate to each other but it's certainly interesting. 

Give me a couple of days to think about this. 

Tuesday, March 25, 2014

Soda, Pop, Cola, & Soft Drinks

In an effort to be healthier person I'm giving up soft drinks. It was something I had been meaning to do for a while but always found some reason not to. It was never a good reason, but there was always a reason. So for my birthday last week I decided to go cold turkey and I haven't had one since. So far it's been going well. My goal is to avoid drinking any soft drinks for two months but I'd settle for a couple of weeks.

I was inspired by my partner who has been making lots of lifestyle changes recently (last year or two). She's given up caffeine, going to yoga class two to three times a week, and incorporated more vegan dishes into our diet. None of these changes has really affect my quality of life so they've been easy changes. I think when I finally try to tackle meat consumption and dinning out that I'll really feel these health choices.

Monday, March 17, 2014

Double Digits

Quick trip down lane.

11, 1992 - 5th grade. Wasn't my best year. Picked last for everything, not doing terribly well in school and basically super nerdy. Things changed but I don't recall being very happy for my 11th birthday.

22, 2003 - Third year of undergrad. Went to dive bar. One of our friend's birthday was the 16th (or maybe the 18th... I don't remember) so we did a dual party. It was a good time surrounded by all of my university friends. 

33, 2014 - Had to work. Didn't sleep well the night before. Best part was being taken to a surprise restaurant for dinner. Also made a resolution to stop drinking carbonated drinks. 

Saturday, March 15, 2014

Visiting Another World

Just got back from a short trip to DC. It was great. There was so much to see along the Mall and you can pretty much walk everywhere. All the museums and galleries  are free, which is great because you don't feel forced to stay in them longer than you want to justify the admission. Going to DC really gives you an insight into the American psych; what the founders, and their heirs, want the people to believe America is about. I thought I understood the idea of American Exceptionalism but I really didn't. It's something else. And I'm not sure it's for me. I get you can live in a country like the US and not buy into the propaganda. Washington is built to make you believe. They were in the business of myth making, something that Canada lacks. Now I want to visit Ottawa to compare. 

Friday, February 28, 2014

Days like these

In an attempt to be creative, I'm ditching work tonight to write on my blog in order to keep my promise of posting something longer at the end of the month.

...And I can't think of anything to write. I know I'm not a writer. I've read a bunch of posts on tumblr from different writers talking about the craft (yes, I'm using something on tumblr as an authoritative source in this matter). I don't have the compulsion to write everyday. I don't have stories bursting out of me or an inquisitive mind that needs to report on some troubling aspect of the world. I'm an amateur and that's the way I like it. It's nice to have moments to write something to keep to myself. 

Saw The Stories We Tell a couple of weeks ago. It was fantastic. Got me thinking about memory, stories, and persona more so than usual. Not reliving my life but thinking about WHAT happened (Did I construct parts of that event? Did it happen the way I think it did?), HOW it affects me now, and most importantly HOW I remember it (Has how I think about it has changed over time?). These are fundamental questions of human existence; the unexamined life and all. 

Ok, that last paragraph is a little bit of a mess. I'm going to leave it in as a quote. Here's what I was trying to get at - I take the Socrates quote regarding the unexamined life seriously. The only thing I can truly control is HOW interpret my memories into stories I tell. I pick and choose what parts of my life fit with my current personality and discard the rest. You do need to, from time to time, reflect and sometimes confront who you were. This is how we build self-esteem and have self-worth. I'm not an anxious person but like everyone I do have those random embarrassing memories float to the top of my mind every so often. All I can do is acknowledge them and move on. Regardless on how this sounds, I think this process is necessary in order to be an interesting person. 

Guess when given enough time I can find something to write about. 

Thursday, February 13, 2014

This post from 2006 details my music interests until that point in time. It's fairly detailed and, if I can be less than modest for a moment, fairly well written. So what's happened since?

In 2007, I went to teacher's college. While I had still had lots of time to searching through music blogs, I was doing less and less. Then there was the year after that were I did a whole lot of random things. Groups like the Pipettes, the Sadies, Fucked UpNick Cave's albums / Ginderman (might be a bit later) and . I did try electronic music (like everyone else) but it wasn't my thing. Never has been. But LCD Soundsystem was good.

Started working at the bookstore from 2008 to 2011, and this started the more low-key music. Had to find things I could play in the store for eight hours a day. I got into the Stax box set, the I'm Not There 2-disc soundtrack, The Hold Steady, Sharon Jones and the Dap-Kings, all the Kanye West (not store appropriate), Robyn, and the Rural Alberta Advantage.

Since then leaving the bookstore, music is still awesome but it doesn't consume my life anymore. Really I just don't have a lengthy commune anymore. As I walk to work I'm listening to podcasts. At work I don't really have the opportunity because there are always people around, always asking questions. When I'm at home, there's no place to sit and listen without getting in my girlfriend's way. Every year there's at least one or two albums that I enjoy. Zen Arcade, for example, was something I discovered fairly recently and I can't get enough.

So this list is reflection of what I still like today, what I remember really enjoying at the time, and what I'm not embarrassed by.

2006 - Neko Case - Fox Confessor Brings the Flood
2007 - Wilco - Sky Blue Sky
2008 - The Hold Steady - Stay Positive
2009 - Propagandhi - Supporting Caste
2010 - Kanye West - My Beautiful Dark Twisted Fantasy
2011 - Fucked Up - David Comes to Life (this year a little strange because I wasn't listen to much "new" music)
2012 - (tie) Killer Mike - R.A.P. Music / Kendrick Lamar - good kid, M.A.A.D. city

Thursday, February 06, 2014

Friends help each other when they're in a pinch

So… It’s a question that many adults ask - how do you make friends as an adult? 

I realize this is a common question. I also know there are some very obvious answers but I'm not sure if they work. Someone told me to join a club. So I did. I've meet some fun people but we've really only got the one thing in common. While I work with some good people, they're at different points in their life than me.I whining a bit but it's a concern of mine.  

I was trying to think of witty ways to discuss this but it's starting to bug me a bit.

Friday, January 24, 2014

Feel like...

I'm sitting in the computer lab at work waiting for my students to show up. It's a Friday afternoon class and, with the wind chill, it's -22. I doubt anyone will actually come. I know I wouldn't, especially since they didn't have class this morning. There were only two people in my morning class (out of a possible 9).

EDIT: They pretty much all showed up.

I've been thinking about how to teach PowerPoint and I've come to the conclusion you've got to teach how to organization a presentation first. The tools you use to actually create a presentation is fairly easy. So now I'm getting them to read articles online, answer questions, categorize those questions and finally create a presentation. Hopefully they'll see the process and use it in the future.

Wednesday, January 22, 2014

I've got a boyfriend

He's big, weird and funny-looking.

You're a part-time lover and full-time friend.

This isn't sad and lonely.

"I was wrong, I love you."

But I don't have fun this.

Random quotes and issue go hand-in-hand.

Monday, January 06, 2014

Shiny and New

Got a new refurbished laptop to play with. The keyboard lights up! Used the Windows easy transfer to get all my work documents on to the thing. Might even put all my music on it as well! New days ahead. And I got the slightly larger hard drive because... they didn't notice? Not sure but not going to a gift horse in the mouth.